I am Yi-Ling Liu, a writer based in Beijing, currently living in my home city of Hong Kong. I write mostly about the internet and the ways it is reshaping our everyday lives.
I’ve often found that in the most powerful stories that I’ve read —regardless of how subtle her gaze, how muted his voice, or how objective their persona — we can feel the presence of the storyteller. As a nonfiction writer, I am constantly questioning my presence in a narrative. Who I am in the story? (the curious outsider? the implicated bystander? the translator?) What is my relationship to the subject? (voyeuristic? collaborative? symbiotic?) How am I implicated and what are my stakes?
The question of persona becomes more confusing when it is conflicted, hyphenated — say, a Chinese storyteller telling stories for an English-speaking audience in a divided world. As a writer who has called Hong Kong, Beijing and New Haven home, I find myself often in the position of what Zadie Smith once called “speaking in tongues”: equivocating between the lens of the insider and the outsider, examining the places I call home with both the “objective,” parachuted gaze of the foreign correspondent, and the emotionally implicated and invested eye of the local storyteller. Increasingly, that has felt impossible. Sitting on the fault lines of two worlds, trying to weave together a kinder and more plural story with the messy threads of my own personal life, experience and biases, as two old dudes in suits — one with bright, orange hair and another jet black — threaten to rip the whole intricate stitching apart.
On one hand, the straddler’s voice is torn — a mangled melody that cannot cohere. On her best day, she is praised for empathy and open-mindedness; on her worst, she is criticized for a lack of conviction and spinelessness. For those reasons, I often hesitate to insert myself in a story and seek to erase myself completely. The stakes are high and scary: Are there immediate personal repercussions to publishing this story? Will it enrich or detract from the story? Will it hurt when I reveal myself in this way?
On the other hand, the straddler’s voice — in all its complexity — can be rich, nuanced, and powerful. Almost always, it can not be contained in a single tweet or a hot take. But the few times that I have chosen to insert myself in a narrative, to grapple with my biases, to do the work of thinking through my relationship with my subject, has been immensely empowering. Yes, I’ve come to realize that voice matters. When the loudest voices are the most rigid and uncompromising and polarized, the voice of the straddler, the equivocator, the grappling and still figuring things out, the speaker of tongues, is more urgent than ever before.
For this week’s Rock the Boat, I ask: Who are you in your narrative? What is your relationship to your subject, and what authorial persona and voice do you assume in your stories?
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Asians and Asian Americans have faced a surge in harassment and hate attacks since the coronavirus pandemic began in China. As racial justice protests sweep across the U.S., Xinyan Yu interviews those who are speaking out against anti-Asian racism for BBC News.
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Who are you in your narrative? What is your relationship to your subject, and what authorial persona and voice do you assume in your stories?
Yan Cong, an independent photographer in Beijing, writes that the role of the objective observer is often unattainable:
When I work on assignments for news publications, my job is to capture what happens in front of me, like a fly on the wall. No directing or staging is allowed unless it’s a portrait shoot,but it’s impossible to be an objective observer. I spend time with people I intend to photograph before taking out my camera to build trust and make them feel comfortable with my presence. I tell them about myself so that they open up to me. By the time I take the photographs, there’s already a connection, which enables me to represent them correctly and fairly, rather than just looking for perfect light and composition.
I’m also aware that there’s always a power dynamic — I am usually the one who gets to decide how to frame a photograph and when to click the shutter to freeze a moment in their life to be seen by the public. When a story permits it, say, when I’m taking portraits of a minority group, I would usually ask my subjects how they want to be seen in the photographs, so that they feel empowered in the process.
April Zhu, a freelance writer based in Nairobi, discusses the paradox of getting the “native point of view” as a nonfiction writer:
In her book, “The Vulnerable Observer,” anthropologist Ruth Behar articulates the paradox at the foundation of her field: to get the “native point of view” without actually “going native.” This too is demanded of foreign journalists, though what is more slippery — especially in long-form nonfiction where narrative and voice matter — is that we often don’t even recognize this as a paradox. We believe that it is possible to resist a kind of Schrödinger effect, where our presence as a foreign, classed, professional observer necessarily affects the observed. We consider only our invisible, observing eye, and forget our visible, participating body.
I recognized this paradox, but only because I didn’t have a choice. As a Chinese-American reporting in Kenya — where a racially charged backdrop of Chinese neocolonialism conscripts me into all sorts of identity politics, I don’t want to participate in — I do not have the luxury of ignoring my Schrödinger effect. My Chinese face is something I must always defuse or at least address. In the process of level-setting with interviewees, acknowledging myself in ways that I honestly don’t even know if journalists are really even supposed to do, like explaining what I do and don’t believe, where I’m “from” and why I’m here, what I know about this country, Kenya. I, the observer, constantly entangle myself with the observed in ways that I imagine other “foreign-neutral,” white, Western journalists might assume they can choose not to.
So what do we do about this? I don’t have answers. But for a start, I think we journalists could learn from other “professional observers.” Ethnopsychiatrist George Devereux suggests that what happens within the observer — the observer’s subjectivity — must be made known, if we are to understand what has been observed. In other words, only when I disclose and meditate on the effects observed onto me, and me them, will the work I produce approach the truth of “what really happened.” Simply omitting subjectivities and calling it “objectivity” does not result in truth.
Mengwen Cao, an independent documentary photographer and visual artist based in New York, says storytellers are always present in their stories.
I think storytellers are always present. Speaking from my own experience, the moment I look through the lens of my camera, I’m showing my perspective. When I present my work, I am inviting viewers to look through my filter. The content I choose to leave in the frame and the context I leave out tells where I stand, literally and figuratively. The lighting choice, soft or hard, direct or indirect, straightforward or convoluted, also indicates how I see the world.
My presence varies depending on projects. I believe there are three partakers in a story —author, character, reader. Together, they give stories meaning. I consider participants active collaborators instead of passive subjects. I have worked on stories about myself, my immediate community, as well as people with whom I might not cross paths otherwise. In any case, I always try to empathize non-judgmentally and pass the mic to amplify the voices needed to be heard the most.
Amy Zhang, a producer for the Netflix series “Patriot Act with Hasan Minhaj,” writes:
As the pandemic rolls on, I find myself, as a person who grew up in China and Hong Kong who now lives in New York, increasingly impacted by the news on all sides. So it is very difficult to separate myself from the pieces I write, which is why I’m currently gravitating towards op-eds and personal essays. For example, my personal experience waiting for U.S. citizenship anchors this Op-Ed, which then branches out to explore the increasingly weaponized USCIS bureaucracy experienced by all immigrants applying for status in this country. In this climate, it’s powerful to express how the regulations that may be feel abstract to many actually impact your own livelihood.
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